22 Weeks

I've been feeling really tired again, but if I think back over the last couple of weeks, that could be because I have actually done heaps, close to what I was doing before I got pregnant. I'm definitely in the eye of the storm here, but I can feel the next bit getting closer. I'm still needing a good 9-10 hours of sleep a night.
I only work one day  a week, but I've been noticing it really starting to wear me out the last couple of weeks. So many women work up until the last few weeks of their pregnancy- that won't be me! I actually have a few extra morning shifts over the next few weeks, while one of the other ladies is away, so it will be interesting to see how I handle that.

Last Thursday was eight years since my accident.  I am one of those strange people who celebrates the anniversary of my accident. Not so much because I like being a paraplegic, although it does have it's perks, but more because I should have died several times over that day. So I celebrate the fact I'm still here, the fact that  still have the use of my hands, the fact that I'm actually a much nice, more patient, considerate and compassionate person for it.


In a strange coincidence, I was booked in for the spinal review clinic on the Thursday! Having not been to one before I really didn't know what to expect. As it turned out, you see a continence nurse, the doctor, a physio and an occupational therapist (OT). The continence nurse didn't have much to tell me, except that I'm eligible for an annual medicare payment to assist with continence product, so that was good to know! She was a bit surprised when I told her I was pregnant, much to my amusement, since I certainly look it now! This is so much more than 'para-pot'! (For those of you who aren't in the know, para-pot is the name given to that bulge in the stomach we get when we lose control of our abs post SCI and everything just collapses with gravity).

The review with the doctor was really good. Dr N is from the Austin hospital in Melbourne and was actually my spinal consultant while I was a patient there. Apart from just being nice to catch up with him, it was really good to talk to him about the pregnancy. While he is not an obstetrician and has limited experience in the area, he does have a lot of experience with SCI. So far as he is concerned, I should be treated like any other first time mum, albeit with closer monitoring. As long as baby and I are healthy going into the birth, there is no reason he can see that I shouldn't be able to try for a natural delivery. There is a change things won't go to plan and I may need a caesarean, but there is that chance with all mums. So I'm happy with that. So far as pain medication was concerned, he didn't think a epidural was a given. What he actually said was 'well you've essentially already had one, haven't you?' He also mentioned there are other types of medication, such as gas, which we can use. No arguments from me on that!

The review with the phyiso and OT was ok, basically establishing tht for the most part I'm fine with both areas. They offered me an appointment with the physio department, so Tim can learn how to help assist me with transfers. I figured that was a good idea, so we will be doing that in the next few weeks. Mum covered all that in rehab, but I've never had the need to teach Tim until now, so I figure it won't hurt to do it with a physios help. They also offered to send an OT to our house to have a look at what we have and to discuss any equipment we may find useful. I don't expect a great deal to come of it, I think I'll get more from talking to other wheelie mums, but you never know what they will have come across. I'm probably a little jaded in my experiences of OT's in the past. I've found myself with expensive 'must have' aids that I've barely used, if at all.


This week I took a drive up the coast with a friend of mine who is also expecting. We went up to Stork Talk in Devonport and had a look around there. This is the shop I originally had a play around with prams, so this time I had a go at getting the capsule in and out of the car. The one I'm looking at, the Steelcraft Infant Carrier, was pretty awkward to get in and out, especially the first few times. The lady got me another one to try, that most people find easier. Most not including me. This one has the release up higher, so I actually can't pull on it and lift the capsule at the same time. While the Steelcraft is more fiddly, I can rest on the seat while I release it with one hand and lift with the other. The only weight she had to put in it was 9kg, so I know I can't lift it with 9kg in it. On the other hand, the baby won't weight 9kg to start with, so I will have time to adjust to the heavier weight. My thoughts at this stage is, yes, it's awkward, but I would get better at it with practice.
The other interesting thing is where in the car it goes. I had thought I would put it behind my seat. The sales lady looked a little horrified at that suggestion- 'but that's on the road side! You'd be getting the baby out into traffic!' I did explain to her that I actually need that extra room on my side to get my chair out (she didn't seem to care that I was getting my chair out into the traffic), so I won't always have room on both sides of the car. As it turned out, the seat in front of the capsule needs to sit forward and I wouldn't be able to get my chair between the steering wheel and me with the capsule behind me, so she doesn't need to worry about the baby playing in traffic. I will just be (even more) restricted as to where I can park!

On our road trip, we also visited Mary's Lingerie in Burnie. I'd been told by a few people they had a great range of maternity wear. Well they didn't have heaps, but what they had was good. I got myself a new bra and BATHERS!!  This may be a very trivial thing to most of you, but I have been searching for weeks, actually I think months now (I wish I was exaggerating) for something to wear swimming. I have now, finally, found something that fits! You have no idea how much this excites me! I'm super keen to get back into the water! And I love how they look on me- there is no doubt whatsoever that this is a mum to be!

The other stop we made (apart from several delicious food stops) was to spotlight, where I picked out some fabric to make a quilt for bub. I used to be ok at sewing back in school, but I'm somewhat out of practice now. I did get a new sewing machine for Christmas though, so I'm excited to give this project a try. I unfortunately have to clean off my craft table first, so it might be a week or two before I get to it! We've also picked out some decals (I think that's right, the stick on pictures you put on the wall) for the nursery, so I'm keen to start cleaning that out and making it look more like a nursery and less like the junk room. 

On the whole I'm feeling pretty good. My wrists have been irritating me occasionally, but with a bit of ice and my wrist brace on overnight they feel pretty good. I'm seeing my massage therapist every few weeks to help with the shoulder soreness. I'm getting indigestion/heartburn occasionally, again pretty standard pregnancy stuff. My weight distribution and centre of gravity is slowly changing, so my transfers are certainly not as pretty and easy-looking as they once were. I'm probably going to have to change my footwear again soon. The heels on my boots don't hold my feet up straight and the leather soles have my feet slipping all over the place. 

For those of you who don't get to physically see my progress, a baby bump update:

Thank you to those of you who shared names after my last post. I have been tracking them down, getting their stories. It's been an interesting mix, with roughly half the women I spoke to having a vaginal birth, and half having a caesarean. The reasons for those having caesareans have varied, between personal choice, those who felt a caesarean was safer for them than a vaginal birth and some who would have needed a caesarean regardless of their SCI. A few of the ladies who've delivered vaginally have stressed to me the importance of making sure my wishes are heard, not to just let the doctors book me in for a caesarean because it's easier for them. No danger of that! But it is nice to know other women have fought and won these same battles. Again, if you think of anyone I can talk to, please let me know!

Until next time!

20 weeks

Twenty weeks! We are now half way through!

This week we had our 20 week anomaly scan, where they check the baby is growing properly and check for any possible growth defects and so forth. Apparently we have a very cooperative baby, showing all the bits the lady needed to measure. Knowing what I know about both mine and Tim's childhoods, I feel this baby will probably save it's best behaviour for everyone but us- we have some seriously bad karma coming our way! We aren't finding out the gender until baby arrives. Tim doesn't really mind either way, but I want it to be a surprise. It was very cool to see the baby,especially to see the changes. Last time we had a scan it was a little bean shape with what they call arm and leg buds. They aren't even arms and legs in their own right yet! This week not only are there arms and legs, but hand and feet and fingers and toes! It was crazy looking at the scan and seeing INSIDE baby too- we saw the spine, the heart and kidneys. It's like a babushka doll, one inside another. The baby is too big now to be seen all in one go on the ultrasound too, so the pictures they gave us only show the head and shoulders.

Baby's head and shoulders

After our scan, we had an appointment with the obstetricians. We saw a junior doctor to start with, who did the basics, like take my blood pressure and baby's heartbeat. The senior OB we saw was only visiting from Melbourne for a few weeks, but he was the only one available on the day. We spoke about Clexaine, an anticoagulant several of the para mums who have contacted me had said they were on. All pregnant women are at higher risk of deep vein thrombosis, due to our blood getting thick and sticky, but I'm at higher risk, due to my lack of movement.
I don't like to take extra medications that aren''t necessary, but in this case, I feel that I'm better off taking it as a precaution. It is used commonly in pregnancy and it is just one more risk factor I can minimise. So Clexaine is administered by a daily injection in the stomach. Since I can't feel my stomach, this is really no problem for me to do myself. As it's a blood thinner I just need to be aware of any cuts I have and look out for bruising.

We also spoke about different options around the birth. I am aware that it may be medically necessary for me to have a cesarean, but I would prefer a natural birth. The doctor I was speaking to went and called Dr P,the head of obstetrics, while we were there to ask about Clexaine and had obviously been talking about the birth too. He has given me the heads up that Dr P is going to be wanting to go for a C section. He also said that he personally didn't think there was any reason, all things going as they should, that I couldn't at least try for a natural birth, as long as I understood I may have to still have a C section if it just wasn't working. I am totally fine with that, I just want to be given the chance to try! So he has suggested that I talk to as many women who have given birth post SCI as I can and find out what type of birth they had and why. (So if you are one of them, please comment or get in contact with me so I can give this guy a huge list)!

After the midwife saying at our last visit that I will probably be in with the midwives for clinics, I've been told I'm in with the doctors every visit and they want to see me every 4 weeks. To be honest, that's pretty much what I was expecting to hear last time! I've also had a referral put through to the anaesthetist, so we can work out what the options are there sooner rather than later.

Our other appointment at the hospital was with the social worker. She is putting in a referral for me to some of the local support agencies and I've been told to apply for a disability service pension (I think that's the correct name this week). This will make it a lot easier for Tim to get a carers allowance if we need it. As much as I would like to think I'm going to bounce back from this, realistically, he is probably going to have to take some time of work. Especially if I end up needing a cesarean. It takes me close on a year to heal from burns that should be healed up in a couple of months, so goodness knows how long my recovery from an operation like that will take!

So I have solved the mystery of my headaches the other week. It had nothing to do with my sleeping position! I did try sleeping on my side for a few nights, but it just had me waking up half a dozen times to roll over, so I've gone back to sleeping on my back.

The grand old pillow fort!

The real problem, it turns out, was the huge amount of smoke in the air from the nearby bush fires. It wasn't even strong enough for me to smell it, but it was clearly effecting me. I did ask the doctor about sleeping position. She basically said I'm fine to stay on my back until about week 32, but a small pillow under my right hip is a good idea, to tip the baby weight off the main blood vessels and nerves that run along the right hand side of the spine. She also told me that I can wear an under wire bra as long as I'm comfortable until the baby gets here and if I'm going to get mastitis, I'll get it regardless of that!

My feet usually get fat over summer. Pregnant women get fat feet. Mine are enormous! It actually takes them the entire night, propped on three pillows, for them to start to look like feet again!I've noticed my pulse is a lot faster, another thing about pregnancy I didn't know to expect. I thought it was related to my hypotension, nope, just my body compensating for all the extra blood I have at the moment.

The other most exciting thing to happen the last few weeks... I felt the first real kick! Up until last night I have only been able to feel movement through my hand on my belly, but I finally got my first internal feelings! That was so cool I'm still trying to find words for it! I had been hopeful I'd be able to feel movement internally, but I was trying not to get my hopes to high in case I didn't. Tim still hasn't caught any kicks yet unfortunately. They have been few and far between and always in the evening when I first lay down. I may have been having cold drinks around that time to try and wake baby up too...
This belly is definitely baby belly now! It's got that firm pregnant belly feel, instead of the squishy feeling of a few weeks ago.

It's interesting, despite the fact that I can't feel some things, there are other things I feel and notice way more than other mums simply because I have to pay closer attention to my body. I had a bit of a what-the-hell-is-going-on moment last week. Because of my SCI, I manage my bowels with both laxatives and by massaging my stomach to help move everything along. Because of this, I've been very aware of exactly how where and how big my uterus is as it's grown. Well one day last week it wasn't where I had left it the day before! It took me a minute or two to realise it had simply moved up, so it wasn't sitting down in my pelvis anymore, but up in my belly. I think normally you would feel a bit of cramping as an indication of this happening, which I didn't get, obviously.

I've been into Babyland the last week or so to look at prams, slings and cots. I'm still favouring the Steelcraft pram and capsule, so I'll be taking Tim in soon so we can have a look together and I will need to try it out in the car. I had a look at a few slings, with the Baby Bjorn the only one that I really liked. Cots I was only looking at for sizing, so Tim can draw up some specs and get started on ours. I'll put photos of all these things up as I get them, possibly even videos of things like the capsule in the car, if I can figure out how to do it. Insert a video that is.

I cut my dose of Baclofen down by half after our initial visit to Dr H in October, since it is a class 3 drug and there have been some negative results reported (although only on very high doses). The last couple of weeks I have noticed some stronger muscle spasms, particularly in my legs first things in the morning. My tendons and muscles in my legs are all particularly tight and my feet don't flex as much as they should. I'm trying to remember to stretch and to get up in my standing frame as much as I can, while I still can, to minimise the damage. 

Two weeks from now will be the 8 year anniversary of my accident, which I'll be spending in my first spinal review clinic since my accident. Apparently I'm meant to have one every year, but they've never bothered to invite me. This year I invited myself!

Apparently it's been a busy couple of weeks, but I think that about covers it. Remember, I'm after information on any women who've given birth post SCI injury, how they did it and why, so if you have any thing that you think might be helpful, please, please get in touch! Thank you!

18 weeks

It always amazes me how something as simple as a new outfit or haircut can make such a change to how you feel about yourself! I finally got to buying my first pair of maternity jeans, meaning I am not just restricted to the two dresses and one pair of track pants I still fit into. And when I say I still fit into two dresses, one of them was starting to feel like something I see girls wearing to nightclubs- my skirt was hiking up and my boobs were about to jump out of my top and set off on a quest for world wide domination! I'm starting to feel more glowing and gorgeous and less fat and frumpy.

It's looking like a baby bump now!

I have really been feeling better the last couple of weeks. I'm still very aware of trying to get enough rest, but in between my naps and long nights, I'm a lot more awake and even occasionally productive. I've done three loads of washing AND baked cookies this morning!!

I had been wondering when I would start getting leaky breasts. That question was answered last week when Tim and I were messing around and he got a rather unpleasant surprise. So far just a bit of clear stuff every now and then that apparently doesn't taste very nice (I'll take his word for it). I found it funny, even if he didn't so much.

I haven't really had much change in the way of my bowel routine. (I use laxatives and suppositories to assist with my bowel routine). There have been a few days when nothing has happened when I've gone to the bathroom, but since a lot of pregnant women experience some constipation, and it's only the odd day here and there I'm not too worried.

Fluid retention in my feet is something I often get. It's usually worse over summer, so combine that with pregnancy and I've had some pretty impressive fat feet! Some days it's been bad enough that even having them elevated for 8 hours plus overnight doesn't give them time to go all the way down. It's strange, but being in a chair, I have no idea when my belly gets to the I-can't-see-my-feet-anymore stage! To be honest, I probably couldn't see them past my boobs anyway.

Last week I went to see my GP. He has a special interest in spinal cord injury and I think I'm the only female para or quad he has of childbearing age, so my pregnancy is of particular interest to him. I'm all for teaching people, so I'm trying to make sure he is informed of what's going on. You never know who he'll be treating in the future. So the visit was just as much for him as me. I've been seeing him for several years now, so I feel quite comfortable asking him the silly questions.

 I've woken up with headaches a couple of mornings lately. I'm not sure if this is a result of dehydration, or my body telling me I need to change my sleeping position. At this stage I'm still sleeping on my back in my pillow fort, but from what I've heard from other mums, I should almost be getting to the stage where I should be sleeping on my side. I want to put this off as long as I can,because while I fall asleep quickly on my side, I don't stay asleep for long. I find I have to roll over about every 3 hours, which leads to a very broken nights sleep. I can't roll over quietly anyway, but now with this belly in my way, it has become a bit of an operation. So the longer I can put it off, the better rested I will be. I have still been getting indegestion and heartburn, so staying off my side is going to help that too.

Over the last few weeks, I've had a lot of people contacting me who've read my blog. One of those was a para mum who was put on daily blood thinning injections (I think she said it was Clexane) from 12 weeks into her pregnancy. This was to prevent DVT. It's not something that anyone has spoken to me about, other than to say I'm at increased risk and watch out for them, but it's something I'll be asking about at my 20 week appointment with the obstetrician.

One of the things the midwife commented on at our last appointment was my belly piercing. She said that I would probably need to remove it as my belly stretched. Sure enough, a few days later it was suddenly looking infected, so that's gone!

There have been a few belly flutters that I think have been baby movements, but it's still kind of hard to know for sure. I'm starting to think about names. I'll be looking at setting a date for a baby shower soon- I love them, the getting together to prepare for the baby! I'm very much a family orientated person anyway, so any chance for a get together! And knowing my family, if I didn't organise it, someone else would anyway (like we did with my cousin last year). And by me organising the baby shower, I mean I'm setting a date and delegating!

Well I think that about covers it! I may have some exciting news to share over the next few weeks, so I will keep you posted...

16 weeks

It's been a busy month! With Christmas now out of the way, things are settling into more of the usual routine. I had been beginning to feel better  in the lead up to Christmas, but with everything going on I just didn't get enough rest, which left me feeling pretty rotten again for a couple of weeks. I am back to about where I was just before Christmas now, with some nausea and indigestion, but on the whole feeling much better.

The ABC interview aired on the morning before Christmas, with a huge response to the online article too. By huge I mean we have got messages from all over the world huge! In the first 24 hours the article had been seen by 16000 people already. A lot of people in our extended social circle found out via the article, which can be found here.

We had our first appointment at the hospital last week. This one was with one of the midwives, filling in our medical histories. Apparently I must be complicated, since it took us 2 hours!! At the end though, we got to hear the baby's heartbeat- it's always nice to have the conformation I'm going through this for something, that the baby is still ok. We came out of our appointment with a couple of referrals. One for the lactation consultant, since my research has suggested some paras above T6 (I think) have trouble with their milk supply after about 6 weeks. So we are going to try and find out a bit more about that and what we might do to try and prevent that happening.
The other re feral was for the social worker, to see how we go about applying for a carers payment for Tim, since in all likely hood, he is going to need to be home for the last couple of months and the first few afterwards. Since he is self employed, paternity leave isn't an option. We really don't know how I'm going to go yet, but it's likely that my recovery won't be as quick as normal, especially if I end up needing a C-section. So many potential scenarios to consider!
We have booked in for our 19 week scan and appointment and for our education classes, although they won't be until April.

We finally got around to finding out my weight before I left the hospital. My usual weight would be around 55kg, at a guess. Fully dressed I'm now up to 63kg. I know my boots are a good kilo or two and I know I've put a fair bit on my boobs, but that's still more than I would have liked. Or maybe it's about right, I don't know. I think most of us have some sort of issues around weight at some stage of our lives. For now, I'm just trying to keep as active as I can, to eat as well as I can (and really, I don't eat very much) and know that I will have a bit more work than I had hoped once baby arrives. I'm now getting to the stage that I really do need those pant expander/belly belt things. I can still get my jeans done up, but judging by the marks on my belly at the end of the day, they really aren't comfortable anymore. And half my dresses don't fit because my boobs keep trying to escape!

My massive boob growth has made bra shopping even more of a pain than usual! I went into one of the bra shops in town I don't normally visit, in the hope of finding something that would fit. Well she came up with three, but the whole experience left me feeling pretty pissed to be honest. Apart from the fact that the 'pretty' bra she had to offer me looked like something my grandmother would wear (no offence Nanna), she told me that I shouldn't be wearing an under wire bra and that they wouldn't be responsible if I got mastitis from wearing one! Well, no, who blames a retail assistant if they get an infection?? And I'm only 4 months in, I'm not even producing milk yet! She did end up selling me a maternity bra, but once I'd left and had a chance to think over the situation (and call my now and recently pregnant friends and ask them when they stopped wearing under wires) I just felt like I'd been bullied into buying it. In all likely hood I will be able to use it when I do have the baby, but if not, well I learnt an $80 lesson in standing up for myself! My next stop was to BNT for the under wire bra I'd been eyeing off earlier in the day! Still no luck in finding any maternity swimwear though!

Tim's sister is currently back in the state, so we have been having some good chats about all things baby. She is mum to four, so she has some idea of what she's talking about! I've also got both my sisters home, so it's been really good to spend some time with them.

Ellie and I went to check out the baby shops in Devonport this week and made a start on the huge job that is pram shopping. I think choosing a car is easier! I think I'm going to end up getting a capsule that fits into both the car and pram. There are a few reasons for this, the main one being safety. We all like to think we would never drop our babies, but realistically, it is easy to do. I think that trying to get the baby into the car is one of the areas I'm more likely to do this. A capsule provides a lot of protection if I drop the baby. Also, if I hit the doorway of the car, it's going to be a lot nicer to baby if I whack the capsule that baby's head. The other thing I really like is that you can take baby asleep from the car and bring them inside without really disturbing them.
I have so far eliminated Mountain Buggy and the city something pram. Both of these I found the capsule sits a long way up in the air, meaning you have to lift it high to get get it out. The capsules themselves all weigh about 3-4kg, so once you get a baby in it, you really don't want all that weight up around your head! I also found the release buttons on those capsules sat at the bottom of the handles, so I couldn't actually reach both sides to release them together. So far the Steelcraft pram and capsule are the best I've looked at, with the release buttons accessible and the capsule sitting a good couple of inches lower than either of the others. But the hunt shall continue!  

In the end we didn't do the downs syndrome testing. I need to go do my first gestational diabetes test next week- I really hate that glucose drink! But the good news is this go round they only need one blood sample, unlike the test I had to do last year, that took 5 hours and 8 blood samples! But that's a whole nother story! Until next time!

12 weeks

It's been exciting over the past few weeks, finally telling everyone! I'm someone who likes to call with news like this, so there has been lots of catching up with friends I've not spoken to since the wedding! I was speaking with a family friend who works at the local radio station last week, whom I've done several interviews with in the past. We have been talking about doing a follow up interview for a while now. One of her colleagues overheard me talking about the baby and asked to do an interview with me about it. Actually he wants to do a couple, but we did the first one this week, with more to follow next year. Once I get a link to the story, I'll put it up here. 

I have noticed a real difference between how I feel when I get enough sleep and when I don't. It's frustrating, because I need at least 10 hours  a night at the moment, if not 11-12. It leaves so few hours in the day! But if I don't get that rest, it just wipes me out completely for days! We are also in a Tassie heatwave at the moment, which would be enough to wipe me out normally. It's been around high 20's, low 30's the past few days and will be up to 34 this weekend! We are going away down the coast for a wedding, in which Tim is a groomsman. This will be my first beach wedding post injury and I feel it's going to be an exhausting weekend! 

I haven't been having craving as such (apart from the occasional up of hot chips, although I'm going off them after the way they've made me feel the last few times) but there are definitely foods I can't stand right now. The smell of bacon cooking sets me right off, as does cooked asparagus. Mostly I just want plain carbs, like toast, crumpets and lots of potato. I have been eating a lot of fruit too. We have these amazing raspberries coming out of our garden at the moment, but I'm trying not to eat too many, since they are so acidic. I have been doing better at my water intake, after weeks of drinking water making me feel nauseous, I'm finally managing to get a bit more down. The fact I'm not vomiting everyday has probably helped too!

I have had to admit to myself that I definitely have put on weight the last few months, almost all on my belly. I shouldn't be surprised- I have spent so much time in bed and on the couch. So I really have to make an effort to be getting out for a push or a swim most days. I'm going to have to drag out my one piece because there is no way these boobs can be squeezed into my bikini! I have gone out for a push a few times this last week, but due to the gravel on our driveway, I'm not up to going out by myself at the moment. It's just too hard to get in and out of our place by myself!

I have decided my discomfort going to sleep is indigestion. I've got some Mylanta, which I've tried a few times, but I have found that a simple pillow fort actually does the job nicely most nights. I'm not joking about my bed being a pillow fort, there are so many pillows involved Tim almost needs a grappling hook to kiss me goodnight! Quickeze has also been suggested to me, so that's my next experiment. One of my cousins used them, since she found mylanta made her sick, which is something I've noticed a couple of times when I've taken it.

I took the plunge and decided to get my referral sent through to the public system. I got a letter recently saying I had my first appointment at the hospital booked, on a Tuesday, the only day I currently work! So I've had that changed until just after Christmas.
Dr H did call me last weekend again though, to talk to me about testing for downs syndrome. Basically she told me the different ways they can test and the costs etc involved in each. The cheapest and most common is the combination ultrasound and blood test, which has to be done within the next week if I want to do that. I had her send through the paperwork so I can decide while that comes through, but to be honest I don't think I'm going to do it. I'm 100% pro-choice, but my choice is personally that I would only ever terminate if it was going to come down to either the baby or me. Downs syndrome is not enough for me to 'start again'. So for me, knowing would just mean that I was thinking about that for the next six months, rather than the excitement of the baby itself. Apart from anything else, we are basically in the lowest risk category for it, I've got other things to worry about.

My sisters finally got back this week! So there will be lots of sister time over the next couple of weeks, while Ellie is briefly home, and with Becca over the next few months I hope. It's so good to all be back together, even if it's only for a while...
 

10 weeks

It's been an eventful couple of weeks! We have now told our families and our close friends, so I guess all that's left is to make it 'Facebook official'. That will probably happen sometime this week. It took a while to get around everyone (I have a large family) but it was very exciting to finally share the news with everyone.

The last couple of weeks have been slightly better, with my vomiting down to a couple of days a week, instead of everyday. I have unfortunately still had nausea to deal with most of the day, with few breaks. I've still been very tired, but I'm managing to get out more. I'm still really struggling to drink enough- I've found if I have any more than a mouthful of water at a time it's making me feel sick. That makes it really hard to get through the 2 litres I'm meant to drink each day. Apart from the fact that I feel really awful if I don't drink enough, I find I have trouble with my bowels if I'm not properly hydrated. A lot of women have trouble with constipation in the first trimester, but I've found the opposite. I don't have bowel accidents very often usually, but I've found I've woken up a few times lately and had to go straight to the shower to clean up.
Another thing I've found is I'm really windy. Not fart windy, but just needing to burp a lot, which, unfortunately, is something I can't do on command. A lot of nights I'll go to bed and find I can't sleep on my back because I feel like I'm going to be sick. Most nights I just go to sleep in the recovery position! That pressure in my chest just makes me feel sick, as if I need to vomit. I've tried bubbly drinks and they do help to an extent, but mostly I've just had to wait it out. Any suggestions on dealing with this are more than welcome!!

Last week we had our first scan! It was all rather exciting. I wanted to look at Tim to see his face when he saw it, but I couldn't stop looking at the screen myself. There is definitely a baby there! And only one, which was a huge relief! This is enough of a medical circus without twins to complicate things even more. At nine weeks, it was looking like a kidney bean with the beginnings of arms and legs, which it was waving around all over the place, which was very considerate. There was a nice strong heartbeat and the lady doing the scan said everything else looks good. I sent a photo of the scan to Mum and sisters etc. Ellie's reply 'was my favourite- 'nice uterus'.

9 weeks old!

After lots of discussion about the pro's and con's of going private/public, I've decided to go public. It's such a small town it makes basically no difference for someone like me who is high risk anyway. I did find however that Dr H will be exclusively private after Christmas, so after all that drama choosing an obstetrician, I won't be seeing her anyway. The good thing is that Dr D, who was my other choice, is the head of obstetrics at the hospital, so I will mainly be dealing with her. Because it's such a small town, I would be delivering at the same hospital regardless and I think really, when you take the wheelchair into account, they will try to get me into a private room asap. Especially if they are going to admit me early, which is always a possibility. 

I definitely don't have a baby belly starting yet, but I have found with my inactivity over the past month or so, combined with my limited food options, I have a very pudgy and squishy belly. My areolas are taking over my breasts, which I didn't think had grown yet. Until I stopped into my local bras and things to just try on a few bras and came away two cup sizes bigger!! So by the time this baby arrives, I may have more boobs than belly!! 

I've been back to see my kidney doctor. My ppht has been a lot better- my nausea has meant I have only been able to eat little and often which has really helped. I've also been better at keeping my fluids up. I still want to find a medication that can help though, because I'm really not comfortable with the amount of strain it puts on my heart when I get it wrong. I left my appointment with a 24 hour blood pressure monitor to see what my blood pressure is doing overnight. The Austin hospital in Melbourne has a number of patients with similar conditions/symptoms who have an increase in blood pressure overnight, when it should actually be lower. I have a follow up appointment this week to see what the results were, other than keeping Tim and I awake all night! 

It's now 8pm, which means it's my bed time. I've been finding I need a good 11-12 hours sleep a night at the moment, or I crash out in a big way through the day. Until next time!

7.5 weeks

It's been a week of ups and downs!

Over the past few days we have told our siblings the news. My sister Ellie is a nurse. She was please to hear the news, but also knows that we are still a while off the 'safe' time yet, so is cautiously optimistic. My other sister Becca was very excited, I could practically see her jumping through the phone! Tims sister and my brother Keygan were both excited too, Keygan more than I expected, which was nice.

I want to make sure I continue playing basketball as long as I can, since that's really my only regular exercise at this point. Basketball was cancelled this week unfortunately, but we kept our dinner date with our good friends Tom & Megan. I was glad we'd told our siblings, because Tom had picked up within 5 minutes of dinner! I called another good friend Eri yesterday to share the news with her. She is currently 30 weeks pregnant, so has a pretty good idea of what I'm dealing with! We had a good chat on the phone and I felt much better with her knowing. Two of my cousins have also have babies recently, so it won't be long before I share with them. 

My morning sickness definitely isn't getting any better yet, in fact Tim actually thinks it's getting worse. There have been a couple of mornings this week where I've been sick multiple times. If I have a good day, I'll get a few hours in the afternoon where I feel ok. At this stage I'm very much taking things one day at a time. I'm just eating whatever I can get down and really trying to make sure I get enough fluids into me!

So far as work is concerned, I don't think I'll be able to go much longer without letting my boss know. Apart from anything else, I want her to start organising someone who can step in if things get worse. Work mornings I skip my laxatives, so I avoid the whole tummy massage thing, which seems to be the main trigger for my vomiting. It's been working so far, but I'm not sure how long it will continue to work for.

I've booked in my dating scan for the week after next, so I'm looking forward to that. I also have an appointment with Dr H booked for the week after that, but I think I'm going to go see my GP about going public. I just can't justify the thousands of dollars it's going to cost me, for such a small return. Since I'll be classed high risk, I'm going to be seeing Dr H and Dr D anyway!

So in summary, I feel like crap, but at least I have a couple of people I can talk to about it now and I can stop lying to my sisters every time they ask how I've been!